Friday, March 31, 2006

The difference between flattery and encouragement is appreciation.

Genuine thankfulness is the basis for encouragement.

We need to distrust those who flatter us.

Insincere praise has mixed motives behind it.

Insincere admiring strokes your ego and blinds your judgment.

Being 'charmed' suspends discernment.

Be wise.

Know the difference.

Fools fall for flattery.


Yay.. I'm back here blogging again.. Currently there's the prize giving ceremony going on now.. so that means I can get to slack a bit, and blog without being seen by teachers and i'm in a isolated spot! Hahahaha..

This week had been an exciting week for me, like meeting deadlines, going out with friends, having fun with my colleagues and a lot of other things!! haha.. Well, life never stays the same, I only know mine is going to get more and more exciting as days go by! Hee..

Oh yea, i just signed up for Emerge Website design competition and thank God that He opened up a way for me to learn new skills but of course that didn't came easy.. It's like i signed up on Sunday but because I'm qutie lacking in my IT skills but I just took the faith to sign up for me and there was the prompting of the heart too, so just signed up lor.. Didn't really expect the next day at work the HOD of IT in my school came to me to ask if I waned to go over to help him in IT area and he dun mind a temp and willing to take the effort tot train me! so nice right! God is indeed a blessing to me!! Hahaha..
Well, next up will be getting a laptop for me to work on my website design and my dream laptop will be Acer Travelmate 3000!! Gonna get it by hook or by crook no matter what! After all i would have the finances by then le! Heeee.. Pray for doors to be opened up for me.. =)

Haha, pretty happy with the way things go although there were a lot of challenges in my life and God is indeed faithful, especially with the thing about my dad who came back on Tuesday. Thought that things were going to be nasty but ended up He was there to reassure me and it's not only once, but 6 times!! It's like whenever I think of my father, imagining how bad things will turn out to be He will just be there, feeling His presence and telling me things are gonna be alright. =)
Yea, and things had been going on well so far but really need breakthroughs like him finding a job and the discipline to find one. People reading pls pray for my dad k? Your help is so much appreciated. =)

Went out with Huishan yesterday to Bugis for some window shopping.. Haha.. I was so tempted to buy some clothes but some how don't have the money yet until the money comes in next week Friday!! Yea!! By then gonna go out with her to shop again! Now is the time for real shopping since the last CNY shopping! Finally doing some proper shopping with another die-hard shopping fan! But yesterday was great mainly because of the company too! Thanks! Heee...

Monday, March 27, 2006

Analogy of men and sin: men without sin is like a cup of water. transparent, pure and clean.sin is like that drop of ink u drop into that cup of water. even if it was but on drop, that drop will forever marr the perfect cup of water; it can no longer be clean and pure enough for us to drink. and sin will not lessen; it can only get more and more.

This analogy was a good one because it is true.what we have done can never be erased,no matter what you do.Yesterday the end of the story came to me.there are but 2 ways to try and deal with it.one, we can try to add more and more water, hoping to counter that drop of ink. the more water we add in, the colour will lessen; it's like that in the war where lives were lost and they dump them into rivers and stuff.

the blood flowed out, but after a while the blood gets washed away.one drop of ink in the ocean will not make much of a difference. in a way it's pretty much like us. how we feel that our many good deeds will make up for whatever small mistake we have done.we try to do so much so that our mistakes will seem insignificant and negligible. in our eyes, we are cleared.but we forget. like

two lefts doesn't make 1 right.even if we drop that drop of ink into the ocean, we may not see it.but the fact is that there are little ink molecules swimming around in it. likewise with a cup of water. even if the ink within is so negligible that i cannot see it, would i dare to drink it knowing that there is ink inside?

what then?another way is that we simply add more and more ink.since i already know that the cup of water is a lost cause,i might as well use it to wash the paint from my paintbrush.in a way we simply give up and retreat further and further into sin.is there then no hope for us?

simply no way to quench the thirst since the water is dirty? we know there is yet another way. and that is salvation in Jesus.we understand it in that through him he will cleanse us of our sins. to us sometimes we think about him miraculously sucking out all the ink molecules from the water. or perhaps using distillation to get clean water again.

but what about being 'born again'? He is not simply cleaning that water the way newater works.THis means taking that cup, throwing away the water, washing that cup, and filling it with clean water.Because really, that is the only way to ensure that the water is pure and clean. THis means that we are no longer the same; no longer that same water we once was. we are new. the REAL newater.

and he does that, over and over again. everytime we are stained with ink, all we need to do is go back to him, and we are being made new. i guess that part is difficult to understand. the part of being poured away. sometimes we go ask him for forgiveness, and while we know intellectually that our sins are being washed away,we still feel that it is difficult to deal with it.

But reminding ourselves that because we have asked for forgiveness, we are being changed forever,into water that has never been marred before, perhaps it might remind us to keep that cup of water clean.

Friday, March 24, 2006

At work now.. Tdoday is my 3rd day of work.. Currently I'm working as Admin clerk in my sec school General Office.. Cool right? Haha.. At least I don't have to find and spend precious time looking for a job. Haha.. Quite alright.. Working environment is fine too.

Got recognised by students, teachers and all and a lot of funny things happened. Will be blogging next week. I wun be able to blog at night, over the weekends too since my laptop crashed. Funny right? haha// be back soon! =)

Friday, March 17, 2006

Yesterday was LSCT's Dinner and Dance which I didn't manage to go despite people asking me. But still thanks people for the invitation. I was looking through the pictures on Bavani's friendster and could see from the pics that they were enjoying themselves.

I'm not so sad about myself not attending but it's sort of like the last meeting I could have with them before we graduate from NP. Quite sad though especially when we were classmates for 3 years and everyone is departing on different routes of either work, studies or NS. It's somehow a sense of loss because you know you are alone on your path, unlike the last 3 years when 5 out of 7 days you can see each other in class. All the time when we walk to the canteen together, joking around and sharing our experiences and all those stuff we do as students, sure gonna miss them all.

But I guess it's part of growing up, something which we cannot avoid. It's pretty impractical if we stay tgether for the next 3 years studying again, since we all have our own life and we don't share it with each other. Goodbye is still goodbye in the end. But at least the memories will stay with us even as we depart from each other, the pictures we took as a class or as a clique will be there still.

It's not so much about the finishing line of the journey, but it's the process because during the process, we all had each other to support and grow up together. I guess that's the sweetest thing that can ever happen. Especially during our growing up from teen to near adult stage.

The memories sure brings a smile to my face though. I'm gonna miss you guys... Anyway since there's time now, I'll just dedicate my thanks to a few people. =)

Here goes:
1) Hui Shan:
Though we didn't get to know each other for very long but certainly life had gotten so much better because you just seem to be there to hear my complains and when I needed a listening ear. And you are a very nice company to go out right from the start and I can certainly learn a lot from you whenever I talk to you. Well, I believe this friendship will still remain strong all the way. Cheers!

2) Bavani:
My fellow angelic sister! A very sweet and nice person who's always so caring and she's always there for you even before you could ask for one. It seems like she knows when you need the care the most and she'll be the first one there. Very nice person to chat with also and certainly a lot of jokes among ourselves and I'm sure you can remember the cheer we had for you? I certainly won't forget that. =) Thanks so much for the last 3 years of company and do meet up soon k? Gonna miss you sister. =(

3) Minli:
You are a very nice girl and although you always seem to speak only when necessary but surely there'll be laughters with you around. A very fashionable person you are and ya, your dressing to school although seem a bit out of place as compared to others but you dress well, like the star in the dark night sky. Haha.. Very outstanding in your studies too and may you get your gold medallist award k? =)

4) Linette:
Hey girl, although our year 3 experiences weren;t good with each other around but I can say that you are a very sweet girl and you are able to touch the hearts of others with your little actions. A very outspoken person that helps to brighten up others' lives as you try to draw them into your interesting world which help to interest their lives too. Never too slow to react to a situation and always there for a person that requires help. Take care in your future studies. =) Good to know you as a friend. =)

5) Weizhong:
Very cool person and your silence causes people not to leave you out but attract people to you. The kind of attention you give to people is very interesting too and your cool character certainly shines out among us. And whenever you speak you certainly are the one to make the atmosphere more lively and make people laugh. And when you speak you certainly go straight to the point and I never regretted knowing you. =)

6) Desmond:
You have been the 'kai xin guo' in the group and your words never fail to meet people laugh and they always carry an impact and importance of what you think matters. Somehow a character similar to Jin's if you want to imagine. A very handsome guy who knows how to dress up and 'wow' people with your sense of dressing. And you have been a nice guy too and your presence certainly had make a difference to the group.

7) Xue'er:
Thanks for introducing me to a world that I know I'll never be rejected and where I'm able to help others with my talents and gifts. Allowing me to know once again who's God and constantly there to support me when I needed someone. I can still remember that you mentioned this before, "Whatever happens, I'm still your friend and I'll always be there for you." Though short but this sentence carries a lot of meaning to me and I'm glad that up to today, we are still great friends and pals and rest assured that I'll continue to grow more strong in the Lord. =)

8) Hui Yi:
I'm not sure if you are going to see this but hey, somehow or the other you seem to be the one to support your friends and be there for them although at times it's done unknowingly. It's so nice because when you are in the presence of friends, you'll always be an encourager to them asking them not to give up and all even if your situation may not be good. And your boldness to try new things really blow my mind off although you seem shy in nature. But it's good to have you around and I enjoy the nice chats we had even till 1 plus solving BTN questions. Haha..

9) Julian:
Bro!! My loving FYP partner who never stops to encourage me with words in Bible and constantly sharing with me the revelations God has given. I can;t imagine who would happen to the project if you were not around. The effort and energy spent on making the project a success makes me wanting to go further and your intelligence certainly blows my mind off with how well you does and balances. I can say one thing, you are nothing but a positive influence to the people around you. Truly an outstanding man of God!

10) Kenneth
Bro, although you are very quiet many a time but when you speak, we can see the Mr Nice Guy in you and I'm sure your character had make many girls in the class or school fell for you! Confirm got... You are always there to stand in the gap during projects and not to forget being the middle person at times which I felt sorry for because it could have been avoided but nothing's the same if you are not around. A very good team player and I'm sure you got great leadership qualities with you are able to show in the future, Commando guy!! =)

11) Dorothy:
It's nice knowing you for the last 3 years ever since the OB camp when we were in the same group, how I got to know you better during OB trainings and soon Soleil when you are always there to make a difference wherever you go. A very strong girl on the inside but yet active and lively that truly is a sunshine to the lives of others. You had never fail to shock me with the things you do espeically when you are calm in all situations while others may be panicking. A very good child of God too when you show obedience out of faith and love for Him.
I know things gotten worse between us later in year 3 and it's very much my fault for how things turned out in the end but still, I can tell you that you are a great friend that's always so forgiving and understanding yet serious and the first 2 years of knowing you better had made my life more interesting than ever before and allowing me to see the angelic nature in you. Best of luck to your future endeavours. =)


Anyway, sorry if I hadn't mention anyone else's names, will put them up real soon because you guys played a prt in shaping my life too. =D


Just woke up not long ago.. I was spending the whole of yesterday clearing my room and finally it's real real clean.. =) Least presentable to welcome guests and all la.. Haha..

One thing in life is to be able to listen and able to sympathize/empathazise. Or rather I point out an example. Like if someone were to come and tell you about your problems, it is good that you listen but imagine if you don't feel anything for the person and respond to the person or gave vain replies like 'Ok', 'Alright' etc. It's just so cold and it felt like there's no difference talking to a wall.

Got whack by a good friend like 2 days ago.. Both of us and a friend of ours were like sitting down and chatting and she was mentioning something but somehow she noticed that I didn't respond to what she said. Felt quite guilty about that though. Quite important for me to be focused on the speaker so that my mind will not be distracted by other things and as a result all I would do is 'listen' only. Of course it would be alright if the person just requires a listening ear only but sometimes adding some words of consolation or encouragement words will make the person feel loved. Oh well... I just got to change.

Wednesday, March 15, 2006

I was reading Mich's blog... And the post she had written for today really hit me. Many people say I'm an active person in church, serving passionately in ministry and in church because that's how I spent my weekends somehow.

She had touched on whether what she's doing for God is being legalistic or because of His love that she's doing them. So the term 'legalistic' was used and to me, is doing something out of obligation or doing something because the law tells you so.

Serving God should be done of out obedience, out of the love we have for Him and out of faith. But being legalistic means we are doing it not out of obedience, the love and faith but because we feel obliged to do what should be done as a Christian. And somehow I feel I'm on that track. My experience with God because hadn't been consistant, I start to depend God and know God on head knowledge rather than experiential knowledge. It's pretty scary because we know we have to live by the guidance and the anointing of the Holy Spirit everyday.
Because of my own course of actions, I tend to impose those 'laws' on other people which makes me stepping over the boundary like acting as my fellow member's leader which I'm not supposed to because I'm like a member like everyone else in the cell group. For example, I expect everyone to be on time for say, an usual cell group meeting but there's no perfect situation. They will sure be members who are late and very often I don't consider their reasons for being late and all.
But situation might be different if I don't try to be legalistic whereby I'm flexible enough to consider that situation from all perspectives and I believe it's particularly easy if the Holy Spirit is around to guide me.

In the Bible besides the 10 commandmants that God gave to Moses, there's no other law we have to follow in the new covenant. (somehow I feel like I'm a Pharisee because they are the ones who imposed the laws God never meant to impose on the people) And in the 10 laws it didn't say that you can't be late, you cannot eat food given to idols etc.

In the Bible it was stated that,"Whatever happens, conduct yourself in a manner worthy of the gospel of Christ." By following what should be done or obeying a own set of laws doesn't make us righteous because we become righteous in our faith in Christ. Out of faith births forth obedience and the love for God. Everything that we do as a Christian should be done with faith and not obligation towards obeying the law that never existed in God's eyes.

It taught me also as I mentioned above there's no perfect situation in anything. I can't be a law imposer when I start blaming people when they don't follow the rule and every member have different level of faith in them based on how closed and how loving they are to God. Members might forget to say grace before a meal, or not attend a church event like prayer meeting or even cell group meetings. Even the desire to be punctual is an issue of how faithful you might be too.
I need to understand the needs of everyone in order for me not to live by the laws. I need to depend on the Holy Spirit everyday to make the right decisions. Everything I do must be done by faith. Of course if we see a member's life going wrong we'll still go to minister to him/her but in the Holy Spirit's way and not the lawful way where there's condemnation. The Holy Spirit's way is always so loving and understanding and it's the love of God that changes people unlike the laws.

But thank God that he taught me this lesson because I know I can go further from where I am right now with Him and changing my perspective is the only way for me to grow.

Apologize to the people who don't understand this post. Haha.. Just my own point of view. =)


Haha.. Finally I got a new blogskin!! Thanks to the creator of this blogskin! It is real nice don't you agree? =)

Will be back to blog later! =)


Now to finally blog down these last exciting few days. =)

Thursday:

Went to meet my mei, Ying Xian after she finished school early on that day. Was outside NJC waiting for her and went down to Adam Food Centre to eat. I think whenever we go out together, there will always be chance whereby we would go for either bus or trekking expeditions. For example, firstly we took the wrong bus down to Adam Food centre and had to walk 5 mins to that place when all we could was to walk less than 1 min, all because of taking the wrong bus. =X

Was joking with the uncle at the stall saying that I needed a job and he joked about whether I wanted to work for him. Lol... Anyway after that we wanted to take a bus down to Serangoon to go to MJC. So I suggested taking 105 from SCGS which was down the road. Well, ended up we walked for 10-15mins since Ying Xian agreed as I was jokingly saying that we can walk. By the time we reached the bus stop, we were like sweating but thank God the bus came and we could enjoy the air-conditioning to cool ourselves down. Haha...
So we went down to MJC from Serangoon to return the library fines that she owed during the 1st 3 months. I considered myself crashing MJC at that time since I was physically at that school walking around (in home clothes hor...) and the school was real nice, nice environment with nice people and young teachers. Yea..

Anyway was supposed to return to ZHSS for a meeting with the NCC guys so Ying Xian came along to visit the teachers there. Went down to the NCC room but realised the rest of the people didn't know of the meeting, only Shuqian was there and apparently there was communication error. I wonder what's the hierachy system for man... Went out of ZHSS and waited for Ying Xian to come out to pass her some books that she left with me and then went different ways. Went down to Yishun to meet up with Xue'er to fellowship. Was practically stoning for 45 mins since I reached there early then had dinner at Mac after we met up. Didn't really do much except to talk till 9 plus before going home.

Friday:

I went back to ZHSS (again) to meet up with Weiying for lunch but by chance saw Chuwen also.. So the 3 of us sat down and during lunch, got a bit irritated by the Sec 2s that were havung their outdoor camp conducted by outside instructors that I think had poor command and control over the Sec 2s. They whistled, shouted but to no avail that the students were in order. The way the participants go for their lunch was pretty chaotic too... And students were complaining about the food and drinks. Lol...

Anyway then got myself ready for NCC training. Today it was quite alright except that the part Bs weren't around because of the outdoor camp. Training was mainly focused on the Part Cs. Seriously must consider improving the quality of the training standards to prevent more people reporting sick and the welfare of the cadets. I wasn't really satisfied with the training although I wish something drastic would take place during the training. But overall it was still alright lor. Oh wells...

Satuday:

Was down to Expo for support duty and yea, it was quite fun coz got people to talk to while doing support. I just love support duties so much because it's really a time to fellowship with my fellow ushers especially when we don't meet up with each either like the cell group. It was fun chatting with Elizabeth and Dennis and got to know this usher named Wen kai who's from St Gabriels NCC Air unit. See, the world is so small man... Finding people who's in NCC from church is so easy. Haha..
This support duty was slightly less troublesome in a sense because I don't have to sweat walking around and carrying things until my whole shirt would be wet like 3 weeks ago. =X Left around 12.30pm before going to John's place. Realised I was the only one there followed by S.Vic while the rest was late.

Anyway I was playing this game named 'Who, What, Huh?' Interesting game by Xue'er but because I was so blur that I made mistakes 3 times in a row. I can be so bad at games at times, especially new games. Heee...
We quickly left John's place after CGM ended and went off to Bugis. I quite enjoyed the fellowship with S.Vic on both the train and bus. Very enriching to talk to her but yet fun and you get the chance to learn more about each other, which is the kind of conversations I want to have with the people around me. (Can see the anointing flowing... Haha..)

Since it was early by the time I reached Bugis at 5.30pm, I had Sky to accompany me as he needed to have his dinner and took the time to plan some programmes for the holidays. Sent him to the train station and that's when I saw Huishan who was early (I was a bit shocked when I saw her there already). Went to walk around Bugis before I complained being hungry so went to have dinner. Dinner was definitely great and chatted a lot. (I can never stop talking, Haha..) Then went over to Icon and Bugis Village which we didn't take long to walk and ended up sitting down in a cafe above Bugis Village to continue chatting till 10pm. HAHA!!
Overall the company was great and yea, chatting and the food was great. I think it's the company that counts the most. Haha..

Sunday:
Woke up early like 7am in the morning before going to church. It was the Friendship Connection weekend and I managed to invite Huinee to church as she took time off from GL trial camp to come. Reached church, queued up, and manage to get seats in the Bravo zone. Had a pretty good view of the stage although I wished I could get seats in the Charlie zone. Best it would be Charlie arena 2 where it's directly in front of the stage. Never mind shall try again next time! Haha... Lots of chances you know... I love the praise and worship!!! Yea.. Somehow I have a thought that one fo the few times I enjoy myself outside home will be when I'm in church worshipping and praising Him. =)

Sermon was short but yet powerful and it really impacted me of how God really touched me although I had backslidded for 2 years, He was still there to welcome me in His arms that 2 years later and this is where I stand with Him right now. Serving Him, honouring Him and knowing Him more and He's really becoming more real to me and not just someone that I know with head knowleadge.
Anyway there was the altar call and glad that Adelyn responded and according to her, she experienced the love of God which I was happy for her because in the house of God, experience with God is all that matters. =) And yea, Sky's fren Amos also came and responded to receive Christ! *Happy occasion on Sunday*

So after service went to BK @ Expo but since it was crowded, we decided to takeaway our orders. While John and Xue'er was helping me with my orders, I got bullied by Adelyn and Huinee sia.. Imagine you are standing talking to them and suddenly got 2 girls come playing with your shoelace, playing and all. Got a bit irritated but I can't possibly shout at them so I just try to siam lor... But anyway after lunch got to rush down for Spelling Bee briefing. Haha...

Waited for yuan shan and king to finish their BS and left for Suntec together while King went home to rest. We were on the train with Benny and Lisa and gang and I got 'forced' to change the way I dress. I can still remember Lisa saying "The way you dress very 'guai' leh, come, let me help you to become more 'manly'." I was like -_- All she did was to ask me tuck out my half tucked in shirt and fold up my sleeves. Dot dot dot...

Anyway went to to Citylink mall with Xue'er and Yuan shan, walked around and finally decided to go to Esplanade Library to sit down to rest our super tired legs. Hahaha... Waited for S.Vic to finish work in the mean time as we were planning to meet up with her but anyway, took the time to fellowship with Xue'er more while Yuan Shan was away looking for books.

Then finally, met up with S.vic to discuss some stuff before finally dragging our tired legs home. Haha..

Thank goodness on Sunday because myself and Xue'er were wearing black formal top. Luckily Adelyn didn't say anything about it coz it was purely a coincidence that we were wearing something similar. haha..


Now I'm quite lazy to blog about Monday and Tuesday stuff.. maybe i'll give it a skip. haha.. toodles everyone!! =)

Monday, March 13, 2006

One thing is certain. All of us will die.

What is uncertain is the legacy we will leave.

Whatever we are planting today wil live tomorrow.

If we do good today it will live on in people.


If you can't decide what you want, decide what you don't want.

If you can't decide what to do, decide what to not do.

If you can't decide whom you want, decide whom you don't want.

Methodical, systematic elimination can leave you with best choices in a decision vacuum.

Make a list of the options.

Put a line through the ones that don't work.

Then measure the short list candidates against your top criteria.

Sunday, March 12, 2006

Sorry guys but i'll be back to blog about what happened the last 4 days. super busy and tired. so heee.. take care peeps. back tml!

Thursday, March 09, 2006

Husband Store A store that sells husbands has just opened in New York City, where a woman
may go to choose a husband.

Among the instructions at the entrance is a description of how the store operates.

You may visit the store ONLY ONCE ! There are six floors and the attributes of the men increase as the shopper ascends the flights.

There is, however, a catch . . .. you may choose any man from a particular floor, or you may choose to go up a floor, but you cannot go back down except to exit the building!

So, a woman goes to the Husband Store to find a husband . .

On the first floor the sign on the door reads: Floor 1 - These men have jobs and love the Lord.

The second floor sign reads: Floor 2 - These men have jobs, love the Lord, and love kids.

The third floor sign reads: Floor 3 - These men have jobs, love the Lord, love kids, and are extremely good looking. "Wow," she thinks, but feels compelled to keep going.

She goes to the fourth floor and sign reads: Floor 4 - These men have jobs, love the Lord, love kids, are drop-dead good looking and help with the housework. "Oh, mercy me!"she exclaims, "I can hardly stand it!"

Still, she goes to the fifth floor and sign reads: Floor 5 - These men have jobs, love the Lord, love kids, are drop-dead gorgeous, help with the housework, and have a strong romantic streak.

She is so tempted to stay, but she goes to the sixth floor and the sign reads: Floor 6 - You are visitor 4,363,012 to this floor. There are no men on this floor.

This floor exists solely as proof that women are impossible to please.

Haha.. Actually women ain't hard to please. You just got to know what she wants to satisfy her. Cheers. =)

Tuesday, March 07, 2006

Hey hey I'm back again..

It kind of occured to me how people deal with their past successes and failures, especially the latter because not many can really withstand failures in their lives.
All of us want success in every area of our lives, definitely. And they see failures as the end of everything they had. Of course there are some things in life which we don't want to fail like exams and all.
However some failures are necessary. I mean some failures are unavoidable espcially if it requires someone to change for the better. Suddenly this scenario came to my mind.
Example: Imagine this person had been entrusted with a financial project and he is to make that project successful. However because the person isn't very detailed and meticulous about what he does he left out a few important details that resulted in the failure of the project and included complains from his superiors.
At least we see from this example that because of such, he got to learn to be more meticulous and detailed that required him for a change in those areas in order not to commit the same mistakes that would caused the same failure in future projects.

Change is ever constant, so is failures that gives us a chance to learn. I remember this example mentioned by someone that he said that Bill Gates, owner of the leading software company Microsoft, will never hire anyone unless he or she has failed at least once in his/her life. See how powerful lessons learnt from failures are so important. Not saying that that we should fail on purpose because it's definitely not a good thing as you might be dragging other people down. Most importantly still is that we should just pick ourselves up from it and learn from it.

Out there there are so many examples of people who failed for once, twice, thrice etc. But yet we see them doing great things after their failures that resulted in great successes. People like Albert Einstein and many more inventors are such examples.

Just wanna say that we should look at failures that badly. if we fail, we try again! We just learn from it. It's normal to of course feel bad or guilty, but we shouldn't stay too long in that stage for it doesn't help. it'll only become a burden to us.



Thinking out of the box. I remembered Xue'er, John and S.Vic always telling me to think out of the box if I want to be creative. Haha.. What does thinking out of the box mean? It means not staying within the 4 corners of your mind and to be able to think of ideas out of the world. Imagine you are in a box and thinking out of the box will allow you to jump out and be able to make use of things that you do not have in the box or make use of the things so out of your world.
It's always so amazing that how people can think of ideas that really blow your mind away. Serious! It's always so impressive that with the same materials or lesser, they can create things that is so... WOW!!!

Somehow all it takes is to just take a little effort and creative thinking. We are all equipped with that ability to really think out of the box and I'm still on my way there. Really hope that one day I can truly blow the minds of people with my own creations and have that creative mind.


Spent the whole day at home today and well, guilty to say but I only woke up at 2pm today! LOl.. Guess I'm be coming a pig le. Tomorrow I'm gonna watch Final Destination 3!! Haha.. So yea.. Be back later!

Monday, March 06, 2006

Just came back not long ago just now from school...

Currently there are a lot of issues I have to settle in my heart right now... Somehow it had been bothering me for quite some time and it sort of caused my performace during the presentation today although the invigilator said he was impressed with the presentation.
Affected my sleep also. Still remembered I only slept for 2.5hours before Sunday and just last night only 5 hours without sleeping well.

I'm not as sharp as before and I can't concentrate at all. I feel so drained and empty, even after praying? This is so bad now..

I'm not sure why I can't release those problems to God and I'm just dragging myself down with unnecessary burden. anyone can help me? sigh...

Sunday, March 05, 2006

Haha.. for once I don't know what to blog about. My mind just doesn't seem to flow with what I'm trying to express and so decided not to post anything.

Tomorrow after external presentation probably I'll find myself going to esplanade to spend the evening there. Haha.. I just seem to fall in love with the night scenery there and just looking around the surroundings can help to make me feel relaxed. Will see how it goes first. Anyone wanna join me do drop me ca call k, for a chat or some sort. Haha.

So sorry peeps, not blogging anything credible today. See ya. Will be back later. =)

One thing I learnt: To smile always.

Came back from Suntec quite sometime ago. Spent the time with John, Adelyn and Sheryl. Had quite a fun time although the gathering was short though. Haha..

Saw the drama today... It occured to me how loving a person can be so powerful, even if it's just loving a friend. Because you are not willing to give up on knowing someone and making sacrifices to know him/her better, the reawrds can simply be so fantastic that no words can describe.

Think I'll describe a bit of the drama that I saw during service today.

It's about this couple name John and I think Brenda, who are the members of the church. And their neighbours, Brandon and Sheryl. Brandon and Sheryl had just moved into their new flat which happens to be the new neighbours of John and Brenda.

The impression of what John had of Brandon was that he was very sissy (Brandon was a image consultant) and always hold loud parties which got John pretty unhappy at times. Well, then it so happened that one day, Brandon went to John's place to seek help as his wife suffered from food poisoning and he needed to know where's the nearest 24 hours clinic but because John was pretty reluctant to help and he was busy with calls, Brandon got ignored.
Everything happened while Brenda wasn't around as she needed to attend a church retreat but when she got to realise what happened, she persuaded John to be good friends with Brandon by asking him to give him a jar of cookies that Brenda personally made.

So John went over to Brandon's place the next day and apologized to Brandon for his rude attitude the last time and well, John was invited into his place since he was forgiven and that's how John met Brandon's wife, Sheryl. In any case, John and Brenda were invited for dinner to Brandon's place and that's how their friendship started. Then things started to turn funny in a sense that in the drama, in order to know Brandon more, John agreed to go rock climbing with him when John didn't know how to but ended up got himself injured. Haha!!

In any case, there were more and more gatherings between the 2 families and they became good friends after 6 months. However at the same time after 6 months, things took a toll on Brandon as he was found to have terminal stage cancer. John happened to know about it and as Sheryl realised what took place, all were sad, thinking how things would turn out in the future. But because John and Brenda was there to support the family when they needed help, things got better while John was able to concentrate on his therapy sessions. During that time however, Sheryl was all tired because she needed to pay the bills, work to support the family and taking care of Brandon. But at the verge of breaking down still, she realised she had the support of her friends to depend on.
As for John, because of Sheryl's determination to be with Brandon while he was sick, Brandon could last until then or he might have given up in the end. In any case, cell group members of John and Brenda gave their support and blessings to Sheryl's family while brandon was sick.

Because of the care and love shown by John and the rest, Sheryl and Brandon was indeed touched by that and because of that too, they got saved. Well, things didn't end there as Brandon passed away on one fateful day, leaving Sheryl behind.


(based on a true story...)

What really touched me when I watched that drama was how the love by the people they did not know in the first place made the last days of John so memorable and precious to him, knowing that there were people who truly care for him, especially while he was sick.
Frankly speaking I almost cried from that drama coz it was really too touching le!!

That's how life should be like, whether you are a Christian or not... Constantly blessing the people around you, truly treating them as a friend and as you truly want to become their friend, the love and care overflows out of you that really touched their lives. Just like how John and Brenda were able to impact the lives of Brandon and Sheryl.

Constantly smiling, saying hi or bye, asking how is the person doing, maintaining an open mind without condemnation will help to change the lives of others positively because by doing all these, it shows forth love.

Love can be applied in many areas. Love can be a sacrifice, but definitely not a compromise. It can be life-changing, and it takes effort to maintain it. Regardless of love relationships, friendships etc, the same rule applies. By blessing the people, spend time with them, meet their practical needs. It can be easy but all it takes is the effort and whether you are determined to do it.

Love doesn't mean letting go, but it can be the form of blessing the person and giving happiness to the person. Love also involves understanding of the person and effective communication with them. (If i seem to be repeating the points do forgive me, it's my bad habit.)


People don't need to see how much you know, but they see how much you care. =)

Friday, March 03, 2006

Life is so unpredictable at times. When you thought that you know that person, you actual don't really understand how he or she thinks and the rationale behind their actions. As a result you may be losing confidence in developing a stronger relationship with the person. Or some people who are real determined may just get a chance to break the barrier to know the person more. Well, all it takes is just passion, time and effort.

Somehow I'm typing this with a heavy heart, I'm not sure why myself though. Probably it reminded me of all my past relationships with friends etc. I mean those, sadly to say, broken. Quite true that in any situation, we all need to seek understanding from each other and that's how communication is bridged and stronger relationships will come. At least this is what I can conclude from my past experiences, especially with a friend I used to call buddy just a year back.

So considering the factors I had pointed out, would you be a person who is determined to break that barrier to really know the person more, and seeking understanding with the person more or vice versa?

It's unavoidable that relationships are everywhere. There are no corners in the world that allows you to do things without having a relationship with someone. I was taught to have effective communication with the other party so that I'm able to have a good relationship with that person. Sadly to say, I'm still trying to master that skill but along the way I believed I hurt a lot of people but thank God for forgiveness in this world. But I wasn't so lucky with some others.
It's quite sad to see people you know, come and leave, either without a reason and leave abruptly or simply give you a reason and that's it. Or it could be situation-based. It's hard to say but definitely some cases would fall in one of the categories above. The only thing I can say is that while we are still with the people whom we love, we be ourselves and treasure all the time we have with them, and to the best of our capabilities give them the best memories possible. This seems to be my motto ever since that incident a year ago... But it's still evolving I must say because I do change myself with situation or with time. But still, giving people the best memories possible would be my priority.

I sort of remembered someone saying before that we should try to reduce the bad stuff we do to a person as much as possible, because people remember the bad stuff more easy than the good stuff. How true... So why not try to satisfy others while you can enjoy giving those people the satisfaction they need? Of course not asking you to compromise yourself to do that but within your capabilities would be fine.

And ya, always take care of the little details too? Haha.. The little details can change a person's life because it shows forth how caring, detailed you are to a person and a person remembers it more than the bigger and more extravagant stuff that you do. Especially if your contact with the person is short, the little things that you do would make a deep impact into the person's life. Little things like opening doors for girls to walk, simply saying 'Hello' or 'Thank You' with a smile or getting something the person needs without being asked are although small but nice gestures that impacts people. Quite true about the term saying 'The little does much.' Lol...

And people do change, I believe. It can be the mind, be the body but it can never be the heart unless you are influenced that causes a change of heart. A heart, to me, is supposed to be somthing genuine and sincere but unless it's influenced or poisoned by external factors, it will remain as it is. Perhaps that's why Paul said we should always guard our hearts. Haha..

How come suddenly I'm into all these I wonder.. Haha.. Well. just a chain of thoughts from my own. Gonna blog on some other things later. Haha..

Cheers and toodles. =)


Yea.. Exams over.. Haha.. Next up one external judging presentation on Monday and I'm done! Haha.. Nexr Wed gonna go watch movie - Final Destination 3 and Thur - Shaggy Dog!! Gonna watch movies like nv before le..

Gonna make a commitment to God this coming weekend and for the rest of the month, really live by faith le. Lol..Need a work with super flexible working timings!! Anyone got lobang? Haha.. HAHA..

Really need to plan what I'm gonna do from Monday onwards, or rather after the SU trial camp.. Heh.. But first and foremost, I know I got to work if not I got no income for myself. Will be a real begger by then. Anyone wanna employ me? Hee... See, all I have in my mind is all about work. Lol..

Will be back later after training.. yea..

Ever wonder what's life gonna be like when you just finish one phase of it and you have to search for a new one to begin with?

Thursday, March 02, 2006

I believe life ain't easy, but neither is it too difficult.

I just feel that why do people have to be so boring as to pose as a classmate's of mine's name on my tagboard and do all sorts of things? This ain't the 1st time either... I'm not here to condemn the person but all I ask is that no such things will happen on my blog or the tagboard again. It's very troublesome to waste the effort and money to verify this kind of things and it's absolutely unnecessary.

Anyway I'll pray for that person for a change of heart that he/she would not do such a thing again. Haha.. And that the person will be real nice to other people especially me too. Maybe if that person is nice to me then I know it's him/her that did that prank on my blog. =)


Counting down 11 hours to BTN paper and 13 hours to freedom!!





1st post for the day. WooHoo...

Anyway for you guys (girls) reading, I'm quite fine now, just that I have to let it go no matter what. Things still hurt no matter what, but like what you said, I have to deal with it myself no matter how much people around me say or encourage. Yea.. But what I'm going to need is time though.
It kind of reminded me of something, that in a relationship, there is one thing many people cannot commit which is time. The time to spend it with each other, or being there when needed most. Verbally we can say it but when it comes to the actual situation, i think there will be changes in what was being said initially, sometimes.

Many people are good at planning their finances, but not many are good at planning their time real well. I'm one such person I believe. Although I seem to avail myself and all when necessary, these are just cases whereby I would be able to spare time for the thing. Of course there'll be things that I would priortise like church and family. But well, everyone still got to learn.

Time spent on another person can mean everything to that person because it shows how caring you are by how much you spend your time on him/her. People desire for attention, everyone desires for attention. And giving your time to that person means giving your attention to that person. Imagine you are on a date and suddenly your phone rings and you attend to it, your date might be thinking "How come you are still on the phone when you are supposed to be with me (Unless it's something super urgent)?" I find it quite funny though at times how people want to multi task but it can be quite impossible at times. Lol...

Anyway my mind's in a whirl right now, so if things doesn't really make sense to you i ask for forgiveness. Lol.. Back to BTN for now. Will be back to blog later.. toodles. =)

Wednesday, March 01, 2006

I know the truth hurts a lot, and you came a long way to be where you are today. Everyone came their way to be where they are today. This is not the end of the journey yet.

Life does not end here and you will not be condemned for what you had done in the past because you don't deserve to receive that and in God's eyes, you are still His beloved child, no doubts about that.
I can hear Him telling you "Don't leave yet, I still have a lot of things for you to do on this earth, many things for you to achieve and accomplish." I mean God is just so loving no matter what happens to us. He never forsake us, so shouldn't we do the same by not forsaking ourselves?

We all have sad pasts, no doubts about that but all doesn't matter because God doesn't look at our sad pasts too. Whatever we experienced before, He's going to turn it around for good. What the devil meant to do in your life, He will, DEFINITELY turn it for good! I hope that right now, something will hit you in your heart right now, that you are not alone.

He may seem to be the world to you, but can you truly leave behind the others that loves you just the way you love him? Your friends, Diana etc... Your family... I may be exaggeratting this but it's just so real about how vulnerable life can be, especially without God in your life.

You told me this before that if it isn't within God's plan, you wouldn't go further than you should. It's very hard to choose, whether it's Him or him that you need more. We all need a certain level of physical and emotional love we receives from a man, but can you truly see what do you really want? Nothing is impossible for God, neither nothing is impossible for you with God, but it has to be within the plan God has for you.

God's people doesn't despair, but they pick themselves up from despairs and fight the fight of faith to carry on doing the works of God. I want you to be like this too. Ultimately it's still your choice how you want things to turn out to be. You have the choice!!!

I'll still want to see you this Saturday k? I believe that you have the faith and belief to make the right choice ultimately. This is all I can say. I'll let God do the rest. But if you need any help please feel free to contact me k?

With God's love,
Junius =)


Leadership puts people in their right place.

Misplaced people don't function properly.

An arm will never work properly if attached to a hip!

Ego seeks a placement with prestige rather than effectiveness.

Some would rather be captain of a canoe than 1st mate on a large ship.

Properly positioned we find our groove.

Our life smiles.

Our circumstances hum.


Leaders are placed in our lives for a reason. We are put in charge of our lives for a reason. So isn't it true that we should take ownership of our lives and do something worthy about it and not go on destroying what is precious to us or that hit us so badly that we wouldn't even want to stand up when we fall?


For once, my tears just dropped for no reason again, but it's always after I'm reminded of her.

Anyway today was quite alright, started studying for BTN and i finally managed to get the calculations right although I needed some help from the notes but a few more practices should be fine I believe. Gonna finish up the rest of the chapters tonight and well, revise again tomorrow plus exams papers and yea, Friday's the final test. I'm looking for people to study with me tomorrow but if no luck, gonna stuff myself at home or at Orchard Library to do my work. Lol..

Friday's gonna be cool... Dinner with my team finally.. Haha.. after 1 month of saying it finally a gathering. LOl.. Before that gonna go back to ZHSS to check on how the guys are doing. Lol.. Anyway it's just some MRT stops away. So convenient! Haha..

Saturday there'll be cell group meeting and Sunday I'm serving in church and I guess that's about all? Heeee...
Gonna hate it now that I still have a burdened heart... Is it really that hard to let things go?


Was at John's place yesterday and while we were having supper, he just popped by a question "Is your ex still in church?" I was quite surprised that he asked that question, well afterall it didn't really matter to what we were talking over the table.

That sort of started the trouble on my way back home. Suddenly I was reminded of how she backslided after she got into another relationship, how she started not coming to church, and how she replied my SMSes 2 months before. Worse though, I saw her during NP Open House and she didn't even dear to look at me, or didn't want to for the benefit of the doubt.

Xue'er got to know of this coz' I was telling her about it and it occured to me that I still couldn't let it go. The fact that she just left and backslide, the SMSes, what happened during Open House... Probably I couldn't accept what had happened or I loved her too much to let her go. I don't really know. But one thing I felt quite angry was what happened after the break-up. I knew Godintended all these for a reason. I thought I could let it go since I know God will have something else for her. But things didn't occur the way I want it to be.

It's true that love hurts, the truth hurts even more. I just got to learn to let it go if I want to move on. I have to trust Him that she is in good hands. I get so burdened at times because of her, and so furious too. Perhaps I'm blaming myself that it's partly my fault for what had happened. I want to change my perspective of the whole thing.

Letting all thse go doesn't mean I want to go into another relationship, but I just want to move on and perhaps prepare myself for the next one if the right one comes? But till now, I know I have a struggle to face...

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